It has been more than a year since my last entry. What has happened? Too many problems in real life, trying to keep a decent job with good pay is hard, and so far residency programs have not responded.

This year is a new trial of my life, right now I don't have a job since they laid me off the call center since they DID not have enough job for everyone, they laid 50 people together with me, sigh.

Right now, I'm applying to the residency program in Family Medicine again, but this time I have good scores in my Canadian Medical exams. I'm hoping they will call me at least for an interview.

My relationship is still going somehow, but it is going up and down like always, it never was stable again after Paul made what he did with that Casino girl. I'm just in this relationship because I don't have anywhere to go.

Talking of people, I was thinking of the people in the NID community, and that is why I decided to make that deviation. I still care for them, just I'm not strong enough to keep in a group, I guess. My depression is worse and worse everyday, but I gotta live with it.

I will try to survive and keep up with life the best I can. Right now, I have my own eBay business so far, selling ipods and ebooks, I gotta do something to survive^^.

Have yourself a merry Xmas and a Happy New Year!

Sincerely,

Alex Lapensee